I need better alternatives for cutting/self-harming?

every night, i take all the stress and anxiety and depression from my day and i channel it by cutting myself. it isn't the best idea. i hate looking at my scars and i feel horrib;e afterward. i feel even worse than before i started, and i tell myself that, but i just can't stop. it's become an addiction. i've tried calling those hotlines but every one i call isn't accepting calls until morning or weekdays. but i only have the urge at night so that's when i call. anyway i need some better alternatives. i tried writing, singing, dancing. nothing helps, nothing is the same as cutting myself and watching the blood drip down. i'm messed up, i know. please help me.